i CANNOT write blogs for the life of me

okay so, basically , i am REALLY bad at writing blogs and i dont even know why i do what i do to have trouble with writing them...

im not sure if its the fact i have to use the neocities ide, or the fact that i have to manually write code to make text, or the fact that my writing is horrible (its all of those reasons, actually) but whenever i try to write a blog post, i end up giving up halfway through for whatever reason ,, it could just be that im trying to do some big project everytime ?? and it doesnt really feel like im writing what i want,, all of it combined might just make it all feel very unappealing to me i guess